Thoughts and such like.....
It's been a long time since I wrote here. I disappeared into myself for a while, which can be good or bad, for me it was good. I needed to figure out what next? I knew I wasn't fulfilled anymore in my 'day' job, but was afraid to go to close to the edge, in case I fell over the cliff. So I did what I would ask my clients to do, (nothing like being my own guinea pig) I sat down and thought about what did I need to move forward, how could I become unstuck? It was not a pretty process!
I emerged from this exercise, maybe not as clear in my intentions, as I would like, but determined, I confirmed with my employers that I would not be continuing after June, 2016, I enrolled in a Master's program to be completed by the time I exited, and I found a sufficient number of clients to help pay for my degree. Two years later, here I am, I have jumped off that cliff. I finished with my Foundation last week, I successfully completed my degree at the beginning of June and despite having no guaranteed income, just a few clients, I feel great! I've put my intention out there and I know something will come my way.
It's been a journey, I was pretty secluded, overworked and fearful, all those uncertainties came forward, you know the gremlin on the shoulder asking me was I nuts and all those questions we would not think of asking anyone else. Now it's time to celebrate, reconnect and enjoy the balance of the summer, have friends over - maybe even try to garden a little. Pick up my pencils and draw, make a new frock! How do you celebrate your success, probably by others standards I'm not great at it, but it works for me...
Now I'm back, you'll hear from me a lot more - I'm off to contemplate my poor garden, maybe even pull a few weeds, check in with friends and see who might like to come over one evening. And, then I'll think about what next.. And for you.. what next, what does this next phase in your life look like?
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